Today I watched a mom crying holding her camera leaving school. My heart immediately went out to her knowing even though she is a stranger, we have a connection. Because being a mama I knew that she had just dropped off her little bundle of joy she brought home a few years ago. The sweet little baby she wouldn't let out of her sight is now down the hall getting ready to embark on a new adventure. As I passed, I literally said out loud, "Awe", because I too know all that apprehension and pain of letting go. Really from the moment a child is born, the process of letting go is beginning.
Its funny the things God uses to shake you up. On the way home from dropping off my two bundles of joy, I began contemplating the school year and the things that come with children. The piano lessons and gymnastics and parent/teacher conferences, the car pooling, the homework, the bad days, the sick days, (because school is nothing more than a petri dish of sickness)
All the HAVE TO dos were swirling in my head. Then I heard God say, "Don't forget Sally, you GET to do this." In that moment tears of gratefulness ran down my face. In my mind, I immediately went to the time I was 16 and my family doctor told me children would probably not be in my future. Then to the time they couldn't find my first baby's heartbeat at 21 weeks, then the other two times the ultrasound technician looked at me and I knew my babies were gone.
Being a mom is hard. Its trying. Its exhausting. Sometimes I yell too much. Sometimes I hide and cry. But it is not something I HAVE to do. It is something I GET to do. Wherever you are in the process of letting go of your bundles of joy, be grateful, be joyful.
Psalm 127:3 Children are a blessing and a gift of the Lord. Thank you God for the reminder on this crazy, busy, Wednesday.
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